stress over...

over for today
sleepless nights
so sleepy now... eyelids half closed

passed my lad skill and presentation finish today
think my group was the best and we actually wear formal. haha...
'sly' keep saying our dressing was good

then theory test
was fell asleep half of the time but i manage to finish before it end

guess i'm going to skip sch tml
i cannot take it anymore... need sleep!!!

door gifts i made for everyone

had fun with daddy

noe wat?
daddy started using his own msn today
had a lot of fun
teaching him how to use
add icons, blar blar

then i invited my cousins to chat too
dad reply really slow
damn funny lar
cos he got this sensor pad
to write chinese words
so slow, wrong words keep coming out

wahahaha...

then he very good lo
still use malay talk with us
nobody understand malay
he win liao...

my mum was watching beside him
then she laugh like crazy
cos her english better mahz
then my dad read very slow
said he really admit he's old liao
hahazZz...

bye liao.
tml still got skill test
haiz~ good luck to me

wahaha... i got it~!~

wahaha...
finally got my radio blog to work
wahahaha...
i think i need to go mental hospital

i tried so many websites
just to put it up
freewebs, orgfree, xanga, iblogs
blar blar...
finally, found e correct html code for it
hehz

today really busy
i slept at 4am last night
cos of this stupid radioblog
then frenz keep sms me
'mei ban fa'
have to get up early

rush all e way to simei
to get char's project
brought a top on e way
so a little late
then have to wait for char
to finish pass report

A very big THANK YOU
to all my lovely frenz
for the help they have given
even some of them dun have it already
but still thank you
i love you all~!~
muackzZz

dinner with mag

had dinner with mag today after school
at thai express
then we went for Ah mei milk tea
in Paragon

she complain a lot
the doctor not good
low efficiency
hahaz. funny.

she survived in ward
yupz. haven die yet
lolzZz~

too bad...
e rest suddenly all cannot go
haiz~ next time lar

selene keep getting sick recently
must take care worz

tml still have project to do
haiz... sianz~

last post edited

yeah. last one edited.
added 2 more lyrics of Goong
cause i missed those songs
really good ones too
heexXx...

argh argh argh...
i wanna kill my lecturer "sly"
for causing so much problem to our group
haiz~ forget it.

a lot of hypocrites in my class
lucky not in my project group
i better stay far away from them

have to draw lots of lines on mahjong paper
byezZz... *gone in a flash*

Goong's lyrics

here, the lyrics i promised

1. Two words by Jung Jaewook

I didn't know it was love, it slowly settled upon me.
With a smile like the day's sunlight, you come my way

I thought it might be love, it quietly crept up
With eyes like the moonlight, you're smiling.

I say I want to know
When I see you I begin to shake with nervousness,
no matter how I try to turn away and tell myself it isn't true.
I'm so in love with you
But in the end, it's you.

I can't have it
but when I see you, my heart is struck with pain
No matter how I erase and forget,
I'm left with the words: in the end it wasn't me.

I know now that I've become so much like you.
When I see you, I smile
Promise you I'll show you now

. . .

Smile again, though many things will change
like my appearance and these old memories
smile again despite the past days of hardships
I've prepared something just for you. I can't let you go

Can't you, please, look my way?
I'm standing here like this behind you,
laughing even though it hurts, smiling even though I'm sad.
I'm so in love with you, I'm right here.

Will you listen now?
To these words that I'm carefully taking out?
that I try to carefully take out
no matter how I try to turn away and say it isn't true,
I'm left repeating these words by myself, stay by my side, stay.



2. I love you, only you by Shim Taeyoon

. . .

The moment that I first saw you, I wanted to believe you were the girl.
And so I swore to myself that there would be no more
relationships in my life.
That you would be the last girl in my life.

You say you don't need expensive gifts,
that all you need is what's from the heart,
that you like anything that I give you,
but as you say these things, you make my heart cry.

I'm so very poor
and you'll probably have a hard time with me
But I'm so happy with you
I promise that you're the only one I'll love.

Your smile always makes me smile.
If it means being with you then I'm really happy.
I'll treasure you with all the love I have for you
I love you like this

The more and more I know you, the nicer you are
the more and more I see you, the more I miss you
I'm thinking about you whether I'm standing or sitting
I'm thinking about you no matter where I go

I'm thinking about you even when I see pretty things,
or even when I'm driving or taking care of my business.
Your eyes are big and you've a lot of charm
You're always on my side, whenver or wherever.

When I'm down your smile becomes my strength.
Our love I hope continues like this.
I promise I'll only have eyes for you.
I swear you're the only one I'll love.

. . .

In a busy life I get so weary and crazy.
We fight over thoughtless things.
With a sorry heart we go on a date
and eat and even do the movie thing.

No matter how hard of a time I'm in I can't express it
and your smile keeps me going
We go shopping for three hours only to buy just one shirt.
But what to do? I love you

. . . (a little deleted :P)



3. I'm a fool

I was a fool. I was a fool.
My regrets were too late too. I know that it can't be turned back.
I know that I can't see you too.
I was so wrong, I'm so sorry.
I didn't get to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

Don't be like that, think about it.
Think about what it took us to get here
Think about it again, you're going to regret it.
I was so wrong, I'm really sorry
I didn't get a chance to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

. . .

I can't live a moment without you.
I still cry even no matter how I drink or if I cut my hair.

. . .

Don't ruin yourself anymore...



4. Parrot by Howl

I miss you again, just like it's yesterday
My desire to see you just won't disappear
You just keep appearing in my mind

The more I comfort myself, the more I cry
Even if I rub away those tears secretly..
The memories spreading to other memories
Making me cry with pain

I regret that I've only received
Will you forget me because I haven't given you anything
I love you, I love you

This is what I learned from you
Out of all the words and phrases in the world
This has become my favorite phrase
I mutter it to myself, as if I were stupid
I'm really sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry for these words that are too late
I wait for you without a sense of honor
Will you return tomorrow by chance

. . .

I didn't know how to confess, I believed in forever
If on that day, even if only in my dreams
If I could return to that day, I'd collect all my emotions
I would empty out my heart and give it all to you
I love you, I love you

. . .

This mind/heart
Even if it's ended, we won't know
Even if you can't come
Even if you've changed
Even if it's not me
I call out
I call out again
Like a parrot, I call out your name
And your love, like this



5. Perhaps Love by HowL & J


I don't remember when it happened.
I'd get dizzy just thinking about you.
Because my thoughts kept stretching, my heart was surprised.
It's a little awkward that I keep saying to you that "it's nothing"
and that "my heart's just trifling"

Is this love? And if you feel the same way, is this the beginning?
My heart keeps saying it loves you and the more the world listens
the louder it yells it.
Why is it just now that I hear it?
That the love has been found us so we might be together.

Even if I try to explain my feelings, the only true way to understand
would be to become me and feel them.
I'm already inside of you, just how you're inside of me.
I don't know if we've gotten used to the meaning between us.

. . .

Now that I think about it, there were so many moments of fluttering.
I'll make up for all the time lost.

I'll be with you and give you only good memories,
so in return you can't leave me.
Even the slightest moments make me feel uneasy
Stay with me

I'm loving you (until then)
like this (only you) already


- lyrics end here -


those lyrics are good right?
isn't tat wat most ppl will think of?
hmm...
will put it up on a media player
once i find another one
the current one is down
haiz~ so sad...

*ok fine~
just notice the media player is working again
duh...
u have to click on load playlist thingy

hooray... ee....

yeaahh... finally finish watching "Goong/Princess Hours"
so nice~




funny and touching~ perfect couple, hee...
i think Lee Shin is handsome, though a lot of ppl think Yul looks better

the Great Queen in the show is so cute, funny but the way she talks makes u feel irritated
very hard to explain the feeling, u have to listen to it

the songs in the drama are nice oso
lyrics so very good. haha...
will post the lyrics when i'm free

went swimming and sauna last sat at my uncle's condo, he sold it already
handing the keys over next week cos he has moved into his landed property





took tat pic at the condo, i think it looks so nice, grand

nitezZz... i wanna be Princess too.

i feel sick...

feel nausea and giddy today
no, i dun think it's food poisoning
woke up around 10am
sat up on bed, felt really dizzy
couldn't take it and i lie down again

got up at 12pm
force myself to get up
walked to the toilet
while i keep trying to be stable
i feel so terrible... argh

turn on the computer
couldn't take it again
and i slept on the sofa for 1 hr
wake up again, use com awhile
again, slp another hr

argh, i still force myself to go school
i can't miss the lab lesson
luckily, my card is with my fren
so she could help me scan my card
didn't go for the 2 lectures
i really couldn't take it

think i frightened my lecturer
when i reach lab late
cos my face was green
yea, my frenz were nice
they helped me a little
asked if i had lunch or not (i had a little)
sat on the chair while e rest had to stand
kept telling me to tell them if i'm going to faint
thx guys :)

still feeling a little giddy now.
end here, going off to bed to rest
byez~

Steamboat at Marina

after school, my whole project grp went to Marina Bay today
but we reach too early, so kar, ver, ros and her bf
had 2 games of bowling at Superbowl while joy, evon, shashi, ling and i
went to the arcade
i didn't play any games but i did manage to get a pic. hee~




joyce and shashi like husband and wife. wahahaz.

and we left a while later, leaving them alone there
waited for the rest to finish their game
we are starving to death already

went to the steamboat stall called "Chong Pang"
ehh... dunno why they came up with tat name




pic of food on our table
e meat is nice but not the seafood, it's not fresh.




Project grp photo
(thx to ros' bf for helping us with the photos)




with the gals, but ros isn't in
she had to leave early for driving prac

took a lot of pics with each of my frenz and they took their own too
had a lot of fun. hahaz~

shall end here...

no school tml

hee. shifted tml's class
so sch ended at 8pm today
so tired...

but no school tml still need do project
they all coming my house again
haha... lots of drawings, painting, writings
haiz~
thursday going have steamboat after school
with all of my group members
since class going to end early

wanted to see Kwon Sang Woo
but neva go
cos i know surely got a lot of ppl
4000 ppl in IMM lehz
wah, really lucky...
i neva go, if not flat liao
can see him on video thou
nah > KwonSangWoo

argh... finally!

dunno wat's wrong.
half of my blog's template went missing
and i have to redo it again
erk...

finally done.
phew~
hope nothing goes wrong again
*prays really hard*

he's dead.

my brother's hamster Wizzer is dead.
that poor thing, dead with eyes open
lying on it's back with limbs all stretch out

it was my fren who notice it cos they came to do project
i thot Wizzer was just daydreaming
not really sad about it, not mine right...
just like pity it lo. haiz~

here, some pics of wizzer b4 he died






hope he rest in peace.

i changed it again

the last layout was too plain
yup, so i changed it
so much better rite
hahaz~

and i managed to put the mp3 player
nice, small, useful and good
hmm...
some of the songs need some time to load
so it'll keep pausing for a while

phew~ so tiring
changing 2 layouts in one day
my sis and mine
hahaz~
we're using the same mp3 anyway
so yup, dun bother to listen to hers
muhahaha~ *wu liao*

yaaayyyy~~~~

at last...
manage to put the mp3 player on blog
cannot see it rite?
wahahaz.
then u all suffer baz
not gonna let u all pause or stop the song
turn off ur speaker....
hahahahaha....

now going help my sis make hers too
hee :P

'sly' spoilt my day

so who is 'sly'?
good question...
most cunning and sly lecturer on earth
miss lai bew meng
so we call her 'misslai' like miss sly

crazy woman
so bias...
really only know how to pick on ppl
she was watching our grp doing the procedures
then she thot we do wrong
we explain to her again
then still keep saying it's wrong
make us confused

in the end...
the answer is the same as wat we told her
we had the speechless face lo
then say Roszian and me make funny faces
not good, attitude problem
faces... wat faces...
we were speechless lo
not like we stare at her
ask her go to hell...

we're innocent lo
then Roszian eyes red already
make us so sad and angry with her
hypocrite...
tat sly only want to save her pride
dunno how to use e machine oso say is machine problem
come on lo...
other lecturer try can use
dunno say dunno
pride worth a lot money mehz
useless saving ur pride
when so many ppl hate u...

ask questions only oso say ppl talk back
hack...
got mental problem is it?
anyway, i heard got a lot of ppl complain abt her before
ms kamala who is in a higher position than her
oso give up on her already
haiz~ a few more months to survive on tat torture...

_ _ _ _ _


i'm happy with how i live my life
the 'past' is wat i learn from
gaining more experience at 'present'
in 'future', i'll be able to do things well
know wat i want, wat is best for me

i've given up when all hope is gone
it was gone, long before we separated...
but i'll still thk u
cos i learnt something from u
and know how i really want to live my way

when u have lost something
and u gain something else
u dun get back something tat's already lost
useless to keep thinking of it
get on with life